Equilibrium Stole Some Sleep from Me

I am troubled somewhat by something I learned in class last semester. It has to do with the wolf/rabbit populations. The book implies that there is always a balance between rabbits and wolves according to this handy little vector field. We learned no matter where you start on the phase trajectory you will always end up on the path. There are equilibrium points along that trajectory. This is all well and good, but so many factors can change anything. Fortunately the book says there are many equilibrium points. I guess that means there isn’t a general equilibrium, it is just at that place in that time, with that weather and external forces there is an equilibrium point. How is that an equilibrium though, isn’t it just a point? If there are 500 wolves and 10 rabbits, hell, we’ll just call that equilibrium point. If there are 1000 rabbits and 50 wolves, well hell, there’s another equilibrium point. What are the criteria for an equilibrium point? Could it just be within a function? Does the book say there are many equilibrium points to avoid any problems that might be caused by a minor change in any one of the environmental factors? Can’t one small change at one early point send the whole function into madness? I have to give Frank credit. He did mention that. Yes, I looked back at some of my notes last night found this in red, “In a chaotic system a change of just one rabbit can change the entire equation into spirals and fractals.” (He didn’t want to go into it, and I think I can see why). Can we just call any one of those chaos points an equilibrium point? Are there equilibrium points when we have a chaotic function? What the hell, why not call every point an equilibrium point? Is Stewart (textbook author) just giving us a way to solve a problem in easy terms so in the future we learn that that was just a way to introduce a more difficult concept? Math texts like to do that. Or is it just that I hadn’t slept enough and read too much before I ‘tried’ to go to sleep. It could be that I just remember it wrong. Fortunately in math you get to learn things more than once.

I know later on in my college endeavor this answer might be more obvious and I may laugh at the fact that I was even up last night thinking about this. I could be way off base.

Those damn rabbits.

University of Missouri St. Louis (UMSL) Math it is!

Washington University (WU) would take at least seven years to get my undergrad in physics (and that is if everything goes perfectly). At UMSL it will probably only take about four years to get my math undergrad. The ultimate goal is the graduate program at WU, the quickest way to get there is via UMSL. UMSL may have more evening classes available, so I wouldn’t have to mess with my work schedule as much, and it is slightly closer than WU.

I took my calc III final on the 23^rd. I had a 99% overall in the class prior to that. I only needed a 53% on the final to get an A in the class. Every time I sat down to study I felt like I was just repeating stuff. I know the formulas; I guess I just got burnt. I didn’t do as well on the final as I was capable, but am still confident I will get an A. I think I would have rather done poorly on one of the test and better on the final than vise versa. I will miss that class though. It was actually quite enjoyable.

I’ve been quite lucky with my math teachers at FLO. Anne Marie Mosher is a great teacher and has become a friend. John Hake doesn’t know it, but he helped me get away from computer science and stick with what I like doing. I wasn’t ready to stop taking math classes. Frank Brooks, he helped me remember what I always wanted to do (I don’t have a link for him). I have always been interested in astronomy. He told me about some of the teachers at WU and what they are working on. That was all I had to hear.

The whole summer semester I have been trying to figure out the best way to get into physics. It is ironic that at the beginning of the semester I was going to got to UMSL math, and now at the end it is not really still, but back to UMSL math. In May I wasn’t sure. I just wanted to take more math classes. Now (July) I am sure of what I want to do. It has been a hell of a semester, thought provoking, enlightening, and motivating. I’m glad I went through it. I still have some minor decisions, but the major ones are past me… for now.

(and no, I will never quit writing about school)

And now for something completely different!

I went to The Muny for the first time last night. Anne Marie, Rick Armstrong, his wife Fran and I went to see Miss Saigon. It was sad and awesome! There was a real helicopter flying overhead for one of the scenes. Prior to the Muny we went to this great Greek restaurant. I can’t remember the name, but if I find out I will update. It was soooo good. I felt really special being in their company. Anne and Rick are great. I have met them both before at school. Fran was very impressive. It was nice to be around her. It is always nice to be around intelligent people.

Physics at Wash U

I have finally come to a decision about school (again). I was on a math path when I met someone that made me think. He wondered why, if I like astronomy so much, don’t I just major in physics. He told me about some of the projects the physics professors at Washington University are teaching and I was immediately enthralled. I thought about it for a long time. I don’t know what took me so long. Now that I have decided on physics it seems like it was the obvious thing to do from the start. After all, it was the first thing I wanted to declare way back when I just started.

I should be sure to thank him.

There are still some details to work out. I may not be able to register for this fall because I missed the cut-off for applications. I may have to pay taxes on my tuition, and I don’t even know how much that is going to be. If I have to, I will get financial aid for the taxes. OH, and I still have to get accepted. I have to work my work schedule around it as well. It is what I want and I will take the risk and go for it.

Earthquake

Well, I got up early today. There was an earthquake about 130 miles away from me. Funny thing is I'm in St. Louis. The quake was in IL though. It was a 5.2 at 4:30 in the morning. I stayed up and went to work early to work on some math. Finally the aftershock came at 10:15. They say the main quake was about a 4 at my house. Funny, that was what I estimated right after it happened. It was strange, because I hadn't felt one since we moved here, 20 years or so ago, but I still knew what it was right away. I guess all that duck and cover training when I was a kid stuck with me, though I didn't bother to get up because it wasn't that bad.

Anyway, an earthquake in St. Louis is worth mentioning, so there, I mentioned it.

Sick, but not in the head

Well, I had an appendectomy on 2/12. I thought I would be out of work a week, but I was out for 3 weeks and still not 100%. There is still some pain; I guess I am just a slow healer. I basically got to sit at home and play video games. It was hard to do any homework because of the drugs, and I couldn’t really sit for about 2.5 weeks. It is still difficult to sit for long periods, bend over to pick something off the floor, laugh, caugh, and sneeze.

On the bright side, there isn’t a conflict in the fall, so I will be able to be dual enrolled at Webster and be able to finish my AA in Math. WOO HOO! Too bad math is voluntary, but I wouldn't miss it for the world. :)

Don't Worry, I'll Never Shut Up About School

No matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to shut up.

They offer Calc III this summer. I might be able to get my AA in December!!! It is only offered in the evening, so maybe some people that would have taken it during the day will take it at night, therefore more people to sign up and less chance it will be dropped. Jen already said she would take it too. I’m excited. WOO HOO!

More School News: Instead of trying to decide between Math and General Transfer Associate degrees. I will graduate with my General Transfer Associate in Spring 08 and continue on with my AA in Math at Flo Valley, and Dual enroll at Webster for the computer classes. Hopefully there is not conflict between the classes.

On a sad note, Webster only accepts the credits from the first AA. Calculus III and Differential Equations might not count for anything, except of course the value it will give me in my programming classes, logical reasoning skills, and the AA in Math.

Mom says it isn’t worth my time and effort. I would love to go further in math.

0 + 2 + 1

Holidays are over and it’s back to work. I sent cards to my cousins and new-found grandparents. One set actually wrote back. As far as I know, it is the first contact I have ever had with them. I know once when Jamie and I went out to Seattle we met the cousins and grandparents, I may have been 12 or so, but I don’t know which set it was. His parents are both divorced and both remarried.

New Years was fun. We went to Noonan's. I actually won $12 in poker. Baumgart took some funny videos of Betz, and I have some good pictures. The video's wont be posted though.

School starts in a week. Calc II and English 2. I hear my math teacher is the casual funny type, but we’ll see. At least I have my study buddy/friend with me. English doesn’t start until March or something. It was so someone could take English 1 and English 2 in the same semester. After this semester all I have left is Calc III and Differential Equations. I always thought saving English for the end would be like a break from the hectic classes, but that was when I was going to be doing Chemistry at the end. Now that it is just math, English has become a pain. I will be happy when it is just math left. Though, I have to see if I can take the last two in the same semester… It is asking a lot of myself, and I don’t even know if the classes will overlap or not. BUT, if they don’t Jen might take them both too. I don’t see myself taking both; I might take a CS class or something else fun. I am SOO glad I only have one Gen Ed class left. I can’t wait to talk to Webster, I hear they take a lot of transfer credits, and I probably should have gone there rather than getting a community college AA, but I was sick and tired of losing credits with every transfer.. UMSL said I have like 4 years left, and Webster has a different system where you can take more classes in a year. I’m excited to go there, wish I didn’t have to wait another year.

Enough about school…

James is a corporal now! He got promoted yesterday. I don’t know if and when he will be home next and whether or not it will be permanent or not.

I spent a week dog-sitting. I mean really, how much does one dog really need to play buddy glow ball when it's TWO degree's outside?